2018 is already proving to be magical! Things I am seeking are finding their way to
me with such ease. It is amazing to see
it happen as fast and easily as it is.
I sent out a call for assistance dealing with judgement a
few days ago. This morning the book “Judgement
Detox” was placed right in front of my face in an email. Even better, I was able to do a free 14 day
trial to audible and get this book for FREE AND LISTEN TO IT WHILE I WORK!!! I honestly have no idea how all this
happened, I didn’t go looking for any of it and I am quite sure I have already done
the free 14 day trial in the past with Audible and find it hard to believe they
would allow me to do it again. I will
gladly take it all with loving gratitude from the bottom of my heart!
The first exercise in the book is to make 4 columns. Write out 15 things/people you judge or have
judged in column 1. Write how that
judgement makes you feel in column 2. In
column 3 write why you feel justified to feel that judgement. Last, in column 4 try and go back and figure
out the moment or events that triggered you to feel justified. I thought I had only done 10, but I actually
ended up with 16. Then after you are
done, you are supposed to look back to see if there are any patterns to what
you wrote down. Any surprises? And ask yourself how it feels to witness what
you wrote. This is what got me. I consider myself to be very mindful and
aware of my judgements. I have spent at
least the past year practicing just this – watching my thoughts and thought
patterns – so this is right up my alley but I really didn’t think I would get
any new insights from it. But, I
did! The pattern in all of them ---àFEAR!!! Fear that I would do/be/say the things I was
judging. All of these judgements stem
from the fear that I too have these characteristics within me that I have
already judged as my “shadow” and have been trying to keep them hidden and
starving, locked away from all to see. What
a gift! What a beautiful gift to see your
judgement as what it really is. If I can
remember each time I find myself judging something or someone that it is just
the ego being triggered. This is just a
gift showing you that you have a belief about this, about yourself, that you
are not good enough or are wrong. That there
is something about you relating to this that you believe you have to hide, that
you believe to be “bad” or “wrong”…..Because if I can get there, I can center
and connect with truth and love and nonjudgement and acceptance. I can bring out that shadow I have been
hiding and send it love and understanding and acceptance. And that is where the true healing comes in. Once I can accept and embrace that shadow and
bring it out of hiding, it shifts and changes.
It doesn’t hold that dark power anymore.
It transforms into magic and love and connection. It makes me stronger and so much more
authentic.
So, thank you Gabrielle Bernstein for this wonderful
book! Thank you judgement for showing me
fear. Thank you fear for showing me my shadows. Thank you shadows for showing me where I need
to send extra love and acceptance. And
thank you for this entire process for showing me ways to be more authentic and
accepting on this beautiful day!
