well...

I usually freak out before the appointment....today it was after.  Just want to say I hate CF.  Cole's doing fine so far, I am just feeling weak and negative anyway.  Jenna's writing a paper on it and I couldn't even get myself to read it for her....I don't want to hear what it does and how it does it right now.  I don't want any more reminders of what Cole has to face.  Strength will come back, just not today.  Today I get to shed some tears and feel the anger.  The children that keep dying make it hard.  The babies it takes....well. 

On a positive note, I have someone who will do a fund raiser for us.  Now I just need someone local who needs our help.  Please let God bring them our way.  Send a prayer out there for me, will you?