Well this just happened...

I don't think there has been any sign of this coming, even looking back now with hindsight 20/20, and I am the Queen of seeing signs....So, surprise, Alissa, You are starting up your blog again!  Welcome back.

I haven't looked at this in years.  I haven't reread any of the past posts.  Another day I will.  I am excited for that day to see just how far I have traveled in such a small amount of time.

Looks like I am starting a little ahead of schedule (if there was one) as people usually start new year "resolutions" on the first day of the new year but I have never been like everyone else so it only makes sense I am doing this my own way and in my own time.  I was just journaling and felt the need to "put it out there".... so here we are!

I have chosen 2 words to carry and embrace through 2018: 

AUTHENTICITY and ACCEPTANCE

For me this means just what you probably think it does, but there is a depth to it that might not be so obvious.  This past year has been about healing and returning to ME and I have needed to retreat from a lot of people, places, and things in order to do this.  I needed space and distance to figure out what was truly mine and what I had only believed to be mine.  I needed to learn to make space for myself again.  I had embrace all my dark, all my confusion and all my hurt.  I am still learning and evolving of course, but (as scary as it still is) I am feeling it is time to come back into that world again.   This means I have to learn how to carry all that I have learned and this new space I have created with me and not lose it when I am bombarded with all that is out there.  I have to be aware when it is my energy, my emotions, my beliefs and when it is someone else’s.  I have to stay grounded and connected to my truth even when I am being triggered by someone else’s.  I have to stay authentic even when it is not easy.  I have to keep my heart open and my ego in check and most importantly, I have to love and forgive myself when I fail at all of this, because I will, time and time again. 

So, all of that above is just attempting to explain where I am coming from and where I am thinking I am going…..BUT it’s all irrelative anyway because all that really ever matters is where I am!

Here is where I am:

What about instead of judging others and trying to change their actions and beliefs, we changed something inside of ourselves?   We became more of the person we believe others should be?  We did more for the causes we are fighting for and believe in?  We paved the way and showed how it is done?  Just because people speak or come off a certain way or even believe a certain way doesn’t mean they are really that way…there is so much we don’t know, so much that is hidden (even from themselves) on who they really are or how they got to be the way they are.   “It’s important to remember that people are always doing the best they can, including you.” Louise Hay

What if we just gave them the unconditional love and acceptance we are all so desperately seeking?

Show them the nonjudgement you wished they practiced and showed to the world

Donate that time / money / energy you wished they would donate

Radiate the love and unity you wish they would encompass

I cannot change any of you BUT I can change myself!  And that may in the end truly change someone else!